my friends

tetiba ku rasa kecik aty aie...

aku if dah berkawan...asa xmok jak kawan ku ignore ku..apa gk if ku dah anggap kawan ya kdak family ku juak.

tapi ya la tek...dah namanya manusia...kita xpat predict pun apa perangai and sikap daknya..

baik ni pun kawan kita,if dah namanya kita tox bukan BFF daknya,daknya xkan baik ngn kita.

why ho?aku sik pernah menganggap semua ya sebagai perbezaan yang ketara.

once ku dah berkawan..sukar ku pat lupakan kawan ya...

tapi apa hak ku?mok anok or halang orang sak pat berkawan ngan aku..

just aku terkilan eyh..kenak if susah semua orang carik aku?

if dah senang,,,terus ku dilupakan..

sedih juak asa aty ku..apa gk kawan ya adalah yang terbaik untukku..

huhhuhhhhu :')

huh...ya lar adat berkawan..if senag,semua dilupakan..

tapi ku bersyukur juak..aku bukan kawan pya..

entahlah kenak..ku ndang sik kempang molah orang pya...

bcoz ku taok..kita manusia xakan lari daripada masalah..

bila aku apat masalah lak,,,sapa gk ku mok carik if bukan kawan nak?

ndang baik gilak kah ku tox?

ntah la..ku xpat menilai drik mpun...

biarlah ku jak taok sapa aku sebenar...

if ada problem...smua orang cari aku..

if dah settle?msej pun sik pernah..

haiiya....xtaok gney gk mok handle kawan camtox..

if aku ignore daknya,lak aku dijaik daknya..

bak kata mak ku..serba salah jadi orang... yups!

just cgek jak ku mok madah...mun kita dah berkawan..berkawan baik2 k?

kita tox kat dunia tox adalah untuk saling mengasihi and berakwan..

tapi nda?aku slalu kena problem camya eyh..

bila perlu..aku diagak daknya..bila sik?huh...

tapi ku sabar jak la...ya jak pat ku polah kinek..

sabar n trus sabar..

kawan yang ku anggap kawan slalu daknya anggap ku lawan ! :(

susah eyh..ku oun sik taok kenak..

ntahla..malas dah ku fikir eyh..

biarlah orang maok madah apa..

aku sik maok gago gk bha..

ku ada family yang sayang aku..ya jak lar..

kawan tox susah gilak mun diikiut juak kemahuan daknya..

biarlah..ku dah kdak apa jak dipolah daknya camtox eyh.

slalu daknya ambik kesempatan ke atas aku eyh..

nangga ku slalu spon orang....omg!

ndang apalar ku tox,,,kali daknya mikey ku bank..

biar jak la..

ndang upa ku sik pandai balas benda jaik.

if dlok?huh!

if lar daknya kawan ku dlok..ndang habis dak nya dipolah ku pya juak..

syukur juak..coz ku dah berubah..

ku sik maok lalek..biarlah daknya happy molah ku camtox..

poor me nak?hahaha...

sik da orang faham ku...

biarlah...ku happy wak camtox...

at least ada wak kawan ku sik camya....huhuwwmmm.. :)

huh! ndang mena eyh..the trouble is a friend! :)

facebook

aok!ku deaktif FB ku..kepak ku ngga fb kinek..

angol palak..mala jak ngga post nyakit hati..sik tahan ku bha..

aku manusia biasa..sik kan mok nggga post yang  saling menyindir...

apa gk ttba ada orang post sal ku..for what?ku sik la benci..

tapi ku geram...jangan main sindir2 bha...cowards li juak..

setiap hari ku buka FB,ada jak orang klaie sesama drik..

aiyoo...please  be matured bha...kita tox bukan mbiak kecik gk bha..

sik perlu mok beranok sampai pya skali k?

mun asa sik puas hati,padah jak..

tok sik......sampai cgek dunia taok kita klaie..malu jak eyh..

FB dipolah bukan pakei taq owg klaie bha...sindir2,block2..

haiz!angol eyh...orang sik ..ada kaitan pun kena tempias disindir taq owg ya..

apa gk kes ku ya..sampai cgek skolah n negeri taok..

aku sik pandai maok klaie bha..please k?

boh soh ku fed up bha !

knk perlu main sindir?

aku taok ku sik brani kdak taq owg..banyak geng n smuanya,,

p at least,bukan ku dolok cari klaie nak?

please k?...

oh ya..taq owg nak klaie ya,boh mbak nama ku please? :)

ku sayang kawan ku bha..ya ku malas mok beranok and semuanya..

ku mengaku..dolok ku jaik n maybe suka palat ngan kawan.

tapi ya dolok bha..ya ku sik suka ngga taq owg pandai klaie indah..

saling memaafkan adalah pekerjaan yang paling bagus.

sapa2 sik rugi..

bagus gk kita berkawan..daripada harus klaie sesama drik..please k :)

so...bagi ku..bagus gik sik ada FB..tenang jiwa ku dowh..

sik ada nyuruh sakit aty..even ku taok gk ada kes taq owg sindir2 ya,,,

p at least ku sik baca...

nyaman gk ku sik taok hal :)

rindok aty ku sik ada FB..

hidup tenang...and ku sik gago mok buka laptop...

aku just relax jak kinek..sik kdak dlok..

mala jak mok buka FB :)

kali juak ku sik akan buka FB...kepak taok x...

so....I LOVE YOU FRIENDS...

mun ada apa2,just text ku jak la :)

lamak dah sik update blog

last time i update blog,im talk about my problem that heartbreaker..

wkaakka..sik ada gk dah..ku dah return with nya bha..n ku shayunk nya glak...

tapi ku syukur gilak with kehidupan ku kinek,,my friends invite me to join house group..for sharing :)

and ku suka gilak eyh2..ku dapat blajar tentang firman and saling mengasihi..

ku suka nda with daknya..terlalu memahami ..love u all guys!

last nite also..ku banyak gilak dengar tentang kesaksiaan dak sis and kawan..

praise a lord...

ndang kinek tox ku asa syukur gilak eyh! :)

coz ku dah pandai kawal perasaan marah and semuanya..

ku saling mncintai dan mengasihi sesama insan..

mun ku dlok? huh! ku jaik glak bha..

over sosial ! :)

p gud then..now ku dah pandai kawal smuanya...

smuanya berkat tuhan...amen :)

and paling ku suka,ku sik maok gk klaie2..ku start sayang enemies ku...

sayang family and smuanya..ku dah x panas baran..aauuww..awesome ! :)

p/s : thanks god :)

kinda blur!

ppergghh~lamak gilak ku dah sik update blog...mentang2 dah happy tek nak..ahhakx!

btw,aku blur dowh...plus boring gk!ahaahkx!

actually,i'm kinda sad bha...

aku ada seorang kawan..namanya muthu..lalala~haha..alu blagu indah ku tox! :)

aku kenal nya through FB..time ku fk frust dolok..

ku sayang nya gilak2..criuz eyh!she shine my life ....

setiap hari aku hepi if nya call and text ku...

tapi nda,after ku return with gerek ku and nya pun maybe wak return..

nya alu lupak ku eyh..ntah la.. :(

ku taok ku xda crdit mok tex nya,p atleast nya call ku,,bukan lamaktox nya mala jak call ku kha?haiz! 

dah hampir 1 minggu nya dah henti text and call...

tapi xhal lar...ya hak nya bha..ku xpat larang nya dari sik berkawan with ku..ku sik paksa bha..

just ku sik suka persahabatan ku nganya terjejas...

maka meq 2 dah berjanji dolok bha...even dah ada gerek,kmk 2 tetap gk kontek and keep in touch :)

tapi bagi aku,ko lah kawan terbaik..ko faham sikap aku even just kejap jak berkawan..

you are nice person for me...

if meq sedih and got problem..ko jak sudi dengar..

ku mena sayang kau eyh..

hope ko happy jak pastox k?

aku tetap kawan ko sampai bila2..

maybe salah kmk wak terlalu ego..

p..kenyatannya,,aku sik pya..ku sayang ko bha...

ko baik gilak with ku eyh..bait gilak2...

i love you kawan.k bye :)

finally

i call he last night..and maybe that is the last both of us comunicate...for what right?if we cant return back..

better i move on...life must moving foward. . .not backward!

whole night my tears fall down when talking with him..

i love him damn much!so its not easy for me to forget him. . .

but after last night..i think i can stand without him...

i must let him go....if i love him...

so. . .maybe i must forget he from now on...

if i still stay and love him...this can make me and him suffer..

so i make a good decision...by leave him..sorry hubbie..

i must do all of this...i wont disturb you anymore..

i know..everything that i do,all of that just make you cant stop thinking about my situation..

so,i must let you go..i must!

even im hurt,but at least i already do my best to make you happy and free..

i know..now you are the leader..

you must take note with everything that you and your family do..

you must buy everything that your family need..

i understand..

so,,,let us make it over. . .

i love you so i must make you happy by leave you..

please. . .do take care k?

i'm always supporting you. . .even we are not together anymore..

sorry make you cry last night...

i'm speechless now. . .

k..i love you hubbie. . . 

i wont forget everything that we had done before...

i wont!!!!!!!

last night..you already make me cry..

your last message(i luv u b..mwaahhh my yoko)

thanks syg...even i'm hurt..

but at least i already know the true ..

that you still loving me..

thanks for everything..

give me time to forget you k?

i promise!!!!!

-------------> THE END<---------------

question mark ?????????

last night...i text that stranger again..and i write..i want to call her...

but im stupid!i faster write message again and says sorry because i ever mean to meant that i want to call him..

but what?guess what? He ask me to call him.... but i'm wonder..why my heart is not like normally?

i mean..i just call him without any sense of love..nyah! this i want right?

gooodd!!!i feel good ! :)

i told him..that i had suddenly cry on wednesday..and he told me...I'm accident!

oh my godness...i already can feel and predict that something bad happen on him..yah!i'm right ! :)

see...how strong my instinct ;)

then...i ask him and hope he will answer and give me a good answer..

i story everthing that i felt when he leave me..

and seriously...i miss him voice....

and he told me...just wait until tomorrow..and i will give you the answer..

but i wont!i force him to tell me..but he force me to wait..coz he feeling unwell..poor him :(

OK!i wait ~

and now...im still waiting for the answer...hope this suffer end soon..

i need answer...even it will broke my heart..but its ok..i accept now! :) 

after this...i will write what he tell me later..coz i'm still waiting him to text me....

to be continue..........................

he text me..!

last night,he text me again...

maybe im stupid coz reply like this "can you stop texting me?i want forget you" !

wwhooaaa...sound like stupid right?yes i am!

but everything ok after that...

but his word hurting me...seriously !im fuckin hate his word eyh!

he ask me to be patient until he done prepare anything..

wondering!he prepare what?confius dowh!

in relationship must prepare money erk?no right..i just need love to make my life complete . :)

but as u wish..i will waiting for your love..haiseh!bongok la u julie ! :)

but i like it! stupid like me goin crazy !yeezaaaa...like i care?

furthemore,seriously i hate to falling in love again..

even you wont love me back..but im gay with my lifestyle now

everything going easy...

my life is become easier :)

i ever hope you come back to me..

i just want you still love me like the first time we in love..

i love you so much...ahhaakkx = ="

i hate you but i love you...apakha!ahhahah ;)

my ex....many boy flirt over me !eeeeeeeee

ngai saya...saya suka kamu saja...ok? :P