Monday, February 28, 2011
miss invisible :')
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messy girl !
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Saturday, February 26, 2011
POOR ME
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Monday, February 21, 2011
awesome
i give it to you mama!!!!!!!
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Sunday, February 20, 2011
wonder
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Saturday, February 19, 2011
happy birthday
aritox burfday nya....
sad..xpat wish ngannya drik mpun..
padahal..aku dah plan mok berik surprise ngannya.. family ya..taq dah jadi ketua keluarga nktox.sad!!!!!!!!!!!
for u...happy burfday hubbie..umo dah tua..boh berolah gk..jaga lah family taq k..
keja bena2...i just can pray for u..
hadiah nak dberi meq dlok..simpan k..nasib meq dah beri taq..at least da wak kenangan kita 2..
MAY GOD BLESS YOU YA...
meq slalu sayang taq..even kita xbersama gk
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pretending
after ku single...banyak laki suka ku..ku bukan up !ku just mdah nak mena..
tapi..camni ku mok terima?if hati and cinta ku gk kat nya?susah nak?
sorry mena2 dear..ku ndang xpat trima taq owg....ku still xpat lupakannya..terlalu sukar..
if one day ku apat lupaknnya sekali pun,,sukar aku maok buka hati ku untuk insan yang bergelar lelaki..
ku taok sia2 jak ku polah semua tox..tapi..biar jak ku rasa smua tox alone...ku lebih suka lonely,,
ku takut kecewa untuk kedua kalinya..sakit mena2 eyh..
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Friday, February 18, 2011
jiwa kacau
everyday i must force myself to face a fate...oh god...
tapi aku bangga ngan drik mpuntime tox..coz ku dah pat survive hidu tanpa laki ya..ahhahax
ku mok cari gerek gk pastox....yah...senang da jak bunyi..hahhax...
tapi..ndang mena la...ku xpat single lmak dowh....sunyi nda upa...sa desprate juak!hahha
hari isnin,,,rizal stpm keluar..ku just hope rizal ya pat bahagiakan mama ku
susah nda jadi satu2 nya anak yang diharapkan...
tapi ya la tek..ku terima jak apapun keputusan ya lak..nerves dowh ! :P
good nytes! sweet dream !
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Wednesday, February 16, 2011
LOVE THE WAY YOU ACT!
22 MAY 2010
first kita dua bergerek..
sebelum ya,ku still ingat...camni kau madah suka aku and minta nombor ku..
beberapa hari sebelum ya,ko add ku dalam facebook..and kita dua pun chat..
after beberapa kali chat,ko pun minta number fon kmk..
and malam ya,taq minta picture meq.. tapi meq xlyan..coz dah tido..
beberapa hari pasya,,,kitak pun text meq gk...and meq pun reply..
malam ya,meq kol kitak...and ktaq pun madah suka meq and mok meq jdi gerek ktaq..
OK!meq terima:)
because meq pun single time ya..and malam ya,taq mdah hari mggu mok agak lubok antu..
23 may 2011
first kmk jumpa ktaq kat lubok antu..after kita xjumpa time kat TEKBET dlok
after ya...perhubungan kita berjalan cam biasa..
and i cry loudly!
and u pun janji xkan molah meq kdakya..and mok setia ngan meq jak...
after malam ya, i try biar tak serius with you..for what?lak ku wak merana nak?
tapi..hari demi hari..kita kerap keluar...and i totally FALLING IN LOVE WITH YOU!
Your voice,your lips.your breath...and everything bout you!make me sick :(
after ya,meq janji ngn drik mpun takkan curang or mainkan u..coz i damnly love u!
after a few months,kita mala jak klaie..tapi i can settle it down..coz i wont lose u!
sampaila...satu hari after hari raya haji...satu peristiwa pahit terjadi kat diri ko!
your dad leave your family forever....FOR UNCLE..HOPE YOU REST IN PEACE :(
KITAK TAOK X?kmk nanggis 2 hari tgal meq pat imagine hidup taq owg pastox
and i promise myself..maok jaga ko ,sayang ko and family you..
sampaila...............ko mbak ku balik umah jumpa ur mom...
you noe wat i feel?!damn!ku happy eyh!
almost every day ku agak ko dirumah and lepak with you kat luar with your adeq....
I LOVE YOUR FAMILY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!xpernah ko taok nda?!
after ku stpm..ku balik lubok antu gk...tapi sikit pun ku xpernah lupa kan u!
start from that day...kita 2 mala jak klaie..and meq mok BREAK!
tapi kita ndang xmok..coz taq madah..taq mena cinta kmk..aok!cayak meq koh...coz meq dah buta!
sampaila ko mena2 xmok return with ku time christmas !
sampaiku merayu mena2bok kita 2 return...adoowhhhh....bisa my head!
dipendekkan cerita!
beberapa hari b4 ku g indon...kita 2 break gk...ko injak harga diri ku..
tp disebabkan cinta..ku g sri aman..agak ko..merayu...and kita 2return balit
ku hadiahkan ko sepasang kasut futsal!:)
tp ya la tek...time ku balit indon..kita 2 xpat kontek...
and malam meq balit dari nun, ko mita break!
xpat gk ku pujuk u!u dah benci n xdacinta gk...ok lar! :(
WAN..KU MOK KO TAOK..BRAPA HARI YA KU NGGIS NTAM KO...KU HILANG ARAH TUJU EYH..KO BANYAK GILAK AJAR KU ERTI CINTA,SETIA AND HIDUP...KU MENA2 XPAT LUPAKAN KO...SEMUA YA PERLU MASA.....SAMPAI KINEK...KU XPAT LUPAKAN KO...KO TERLALU BERPENGARUH DALAM HIDUP KU...MUNGKIN SUATU HARI LAK BOK KU PAT LUPAKAN U....KO MESTI INGAT K...KU TTAP CINTA KO,,,,
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Tuesday, February 15, 2011
start a new chapter in my life
ku dah xkisah ko ngan sapa gk nektox...
asa kacak juak ko ya duhal!
ku xkisah gk ko mok apa..
yang penting ku puas hati!ku dah benci gilak ngan kau bha...
kau dah over gilak mainkan aty kamek n ompuan lain....
ndang asa kacak!
xhal la....kelak ko akan rasa juak bha...ku tunggu jak ctox....
tox feeling meq time tox....
pergilah kau dari hidupku nektox!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Monday, February 14, 2011
what goes around
WHAT GOES AROUND COME AROUND!
believe on it..
because i already through all of that
PAIN and HURT
have some meaning although got different spelling
I'm in pain and i'm hurting now!
arrgghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!
everyday heartache!
ahhahhahx...hopefully i'm not goin crazy soon...
speechless :(
if everday i must face fake people,,,i will heart attack i thought....hhahahx
from now on,i hate people that got FAKE ATTITUDE!
and one more.....NO NEED TO BE SERIOUS WITH GUY!
ppeergghhh!!pandai2 pula saya ajar orang..hahaahx
nevermind,this is the fate bha.....
KARMA?did you believe on it? I DO!
ahaakkxx..sometimes we must trust,but not at all...
p/s:for heartbreaker especially girl!
moving foward..let time heal everything :)
remember k!they will feel what are we feel now!
saya kejam?!terpulang pada kamu lah :)
-gracias :P
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usual life
i thought i ever got my surprise for this valentine day...
but, HE give me a huge teddy bear...how lucky i am..
But sorry,i ever got special feeling to you..
for me,you a the greatest friend that god give me
Im not liar and hypocrite..
i love you but in the same time,i still love my ex,,
once gain,im not born to be yours :(
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Sunday, February 13, 2011
my worst valentine day
its nothing special for me...just a WORD!just a DAY!
time passing time,i still cant forget you...but who cares right?!
praise a lord,i still have family and friends that always taking care of me :)
valentine day didnt have anything special for me
just HURT me adalar! :P
-i'm always hope to be your valentine..but that all just a dream!
VALENTINE DAY FOR ME IS....
i ever had chance to celebrate it...
but..im still gay!
yeppyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy...............say no to VALENTINE DAY!
hopping that have guy to fixed my heart soon :)
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Friday, February 11, 2011
HEARTACHE!
nobody love me,nobody cares about me...and nobody understand me !
i just want one second only to feel it god :(
seriously, i feel regret now.
My love change to HATE!
YUP! i want to be players now
what else i can do? first in my life...i love someone that ever love me !
damnly stupid!
I PROMISE ! after this,i try to forget you...i'm not even try but i will force myself!
I'm happy now without you..
sorry, i already can forget you in a short time..
Even 1 day you regrets and wanna back with me,i cant! :)
i already close my heart for anyone ....
what for BOYFRIEND right?
if they come then hurt me again?
i'm gay !
you know what?my life is better without you now..
i can feel FREEDOM !
thanks to you my EX,you already teach me about true LOVE
CAN ANYONE FIX ME? ! :P
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Action
yup....ACT LIKE NOTHING HAPPEN!
Nobody know right?Because i can ACTING!
But i'm not fake people..
i just act like educated person that can handle my own problem without show my own pain.
Two days ago, problem suddenly come..
yup!my auntie is a rude person!
sorry GOD,im stubborn and doing sins..
But,she already ruin my life and my family..
sorry auntie,just GOD can judge you.
i'm sad actually.. you already accept god in your life...
but what?!!you still hypocrite!ego!stalkers!
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Thursday, February 10, 2011
SAYA SUKA HIDUP SAYA
SAYA CINTA DIRI SAYA
SAYA SUKA APA YANG ADA PADA DIRI SAYA
SAYA CINTA MUSUH SAYA
SAYA CINTA KELUARGA SAYA
SAYA CINTA TUHAN SAYA
SAYA CINTA KAWAN SAYA
--------------CINTA ITU INDAH BILA TIBA PADA WAKTUNYA -----------
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life
Chinese new year already past...valentine day is coming....
Seriously...until now,i cant stop thinking all about him..
what are he doing....
already eat or not?
are he in good condition?
oMG!every space of my mind is all ABOUT HIM! wtf !
i'm already tired actually..when always hoping for him to come back to me.
Because i know...that is the most impossible thing for me.
But what else can i do?
Maybe im stupid for him!
But....at least for me...that is the sacrifice !
maybe i'm wrong to falling in love with him.. But im not wrong because i do great decision by LEAVE HIM!
Even it hurt...i must face it...life is beautiful !
So i must always think positive and move foward..
Now...my next goal is want to play fool with BOY!
i already tired by stick on my boy..
but what ?!they lie on me.. LIAR!
the sadness part is HE IS NOT IN LOVE WITH ME ANYMORE!
can you imagine? !He make me feel he just like a jerk!
fuuhhhh!!! feeling better now..after MARAH!
But its ok..i already got my strength now...
even i cant forget you at all..at least i have my own GOAL!
you can feel happy now..but later? !mark it!
you will feel same as me !!!
that is fate ! i told you the true..
ITS HURT IF SOMEONE THAT YOU LOVE MORE IS NOT FEELING THE SAME!
ahhahaa..im happy now !
i already have my own life that is MORE BEAUTIFUL than before !
so what? you think you already OK meh? !
i want see.....WHAT HAPPEN LATER !
GONNA SEE U SOON!
REGRET!
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hopefully examiner xcamtox time semak paper ku
and hopefully..i get this! :)

im hurting
tinggal kenangan :(
this is not the real one




